One night at my house, he totally blew up and ripped his shirt off and then told me about the 6 cycles he has taken and that's why he was such a big mother fu––er then. He totally freaked in front of my parents and other company and, needless to say, embarrassed the sh–– out of me. Then later on, he said he hadn't taken that many cycles, he just told me that to "hurt me." I have seen some sealed syringes and a tiny bottle of something. The night he blew up at my house, he told me he was going to start working out hard again, and if it didn't happen like he wanted it to, he would talk to me if he wanted to start back on them.

Last night, while over at his place, he totally blew a damn fuse. OOOH MY GOD, I have seen him out of line, but not like this...it scared the living sh–– out of me. He tore the whole place to hell and knocked the sh–– out of a door and totally beat it to pieces, with blood on his knuckles. He came towards me so angry, never touched me, but forced me to keep on backing up with his body and pointing his finger in my face and shaking his fist at me where I was on the bed terrified. He told me to "get the fuck out of my life" and "to leave" and told me he hated my ass and called me a bitch and said our relationship was over numerous times. He was pissed over a guy I was involved with when I was 16, yet I have only known him and been in a relationship with him for a little over a year. He has got issues and is taking them out on me...that's his way to vent his "roid rage." I guess he is on them. I don't know if he is. He threw a fit and I have never in my life seen anyone as angry and in such rage as what I experienced last nite. I need ADVICE MAJORLY about steroids. He knows a hell of a lot about them and it fascinates him, and I know nothing about them.

I am obviously in a verbally abusive relationship and looks like it could be heading into a very violent relationship because his fits get worse and worse each time. And by the way, this is the guy who the day before and for the past several months says that I'm the girl he's gonna marry. I can't marry someone abusive. Look, I'm not like some whore...I have only dated a few people in my life and he was my first, if you know what I mean. I have never done anything bad in my life. I have a loving family and have never been in an abusive household, so this is very new to me. I have given this guy my heart and soul and all that I have and I love him sooo much and this steroid sh–– is ruining him and me and our relationship together. I HATE STEROIDS. I am afraid he is gonna kill somebody or me.

I need some help for real to know more about the rages and things like that...but I hear that when you have a roid rage, most of the time you don't remember what you did or how you got that broken hand or how that door is torn to hell, is this true? When we talk about steroids, sometimes he tries to convince me they are "OK" and that they improve his mood. In everyone else, steroids make them crazy, but they calm his mood down, so he says. My whole family loves him to death, but now they are afraid for me. I am completely torn over this because I can't live without him, but I can't live with him in fear of when he's gonna snap. Please help me with some answers because I'm afraid of him.

I am a 30 year old woman who is about to start my very first cycle of steroids. Unlike a lot of men that juice, I did not enter into this decision lightly or compulsively. I came to this decision after suffering from different medical conditions (NO sex drive, extreme lethargy -- i.e. I need 12 - 14 hours of sleep a day and am still exhausted all day anyway, low thyroid hormone production, severe depression, etc., etc., etc.) for more than 4 years, and I was tired of letting life just pass me by. Also, this was causing major problems in my personal life! Basically, I am at my wit's end. None of the MANY doctors that I have been examined by are comfortable prescribing hormones or stimulants, especially to someone so young who appears to be very radiant and vibrant, so I have to take matters into my own hands and self-medicate (and develop a KILLER physique in the process!). Luckily for me, I was blessed with, shall we say, above average intelligence, and I've utilized the internet to educate myself on this subject.

Since I can't work (I don't have the energy to commit to a schedule; some days I can barely get out of bed), I have spent between 6 and 12 hours a day sitting at my desk researching steroids on the internet for the past year and a half. I've learned which steroids are safest for men AND for women (they differ), at what dosages, and WHY, and the only advice I can give you is this: If your man has made up his mind to juice, there is probably no talking him out of it. Therefore, if you care about his well-being, and I'm sure you do, it might behoove you to convince him to use a compound that has less chance of causing aggressiveness or mood swings. Also, there are ways to supplement the bodies own ability to produce testosterone after ending a cycle that will facilitate a smoother transition in order to avoid the "crash" that is inevitable when hormone levels diminish so rapidly and to such an extreme.

I'm certain if you were to approach him in a manner that was nonjudgmental, and expressed a desire to help him cycle safely and advantageously, he would be open to making the necessary switch from the harsher, more toxic androgens to the milder, safer anabolics. Explain to him that making these changes would not only make the difference in his inter-personal relationships (not just with you, but with others as well), but it would also ensure that he keep more of his hard-earned gains, allowing him to avoid being "on" all the time in order to continue to look and feel his best.

Good luck to you.

K.